Coffeed, Prologue: My relationship with coffee.

This is the first of the many of my coffeed-brain rambling about stuffs.

If I could metaphorically explain my relationship with coffee, it would be Justin Bieber and Selena Gomez. It started in a very young age, on and off, we make up we break up, and some of the break ups are not pretty. But however, just like Selena and Justin, we are currently getting back together.

To be fair, whenever I break up with coffee, it’s never its fault, it’s always me. Indeed, for my case, “it’s not you, it’s me” excuse is genuine.Image result for it's not you it's me gif

Coffee only does good thing to me, in fact I really think coffee is the only reason why I could be such an interesting person, pretty shameless to call yourself interesting but well… Because I started drinking coffee from a very young age, I didn’t remember how I was before coffee invasion, maybe I was boring and dull, I don’t know.

It was because I needed to watch football at 2-3 am in the morning and went to school at 7 am in the morning, I had to drink coffee, it is known to wake you up. But after so many years living with coffee, I don’t think coffee wakes you up physically, it only wakes your brain, but not your body, thus some people experience coffee crash, where they feel so tired, but can’t sleep.

Everytime I drink coffee, I become interesting, I can tell stories very well, I am animated and I become super smart. I’m serious. I think I am pretty smart in general, but when I drink coffee, my brain turns into baby brain, that can absorb things so quickly, I could maybe even fly a plane! The last one is a joke, but I hope you get what I mean.

So I abused coffee, whenever I wanted to write stories, I drank coffee; whenever I wanted to create something, I drank coffee; painted, drank coffee, hung out with friend, drank coffee; watched football, drank coffee; had arguments with Bandi, drank coffee. I drank coffee pretty much the whole life until… my gastric acid said to stop. Or I just got old, I don’t know. I then spent some time away from coffee and went through a gastric medication for a while. Whenever I felt better, I started to go back to coffee again, just like an addict. Then my stomach hurt again and I suffered the whole night and then I quit again. There was even one point when coffee gave me allergy, because it heat up my body and I’m allergic to heat. The relationship was unhealthy at that point of time; on and off and on and off, and I was tired.

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I know, it was not the coffee that gave me a super power to be smart, it was the caffeine. So, I came to look for a healthier option to be caffeinated. I was in South Korea when I fell in love with green tea, so I started to forget about coffee and drank tea daily to fill in the void of my soul. Tea doesn’t have as much caffeine as coffee (come on, even the name caffeine is pretty much taken from caffe, which means coffee – not sure about this, let’s google later) so I had to drink so much tea in order to keep the brain cells jumping. Some days I even drank more tea than water in a day, I’m serious. But the good thing is, tea doesn’t give me gastric.

So, I was coffee-free for about 5 months, and I thought I could finally sing Taylor Swift’s song “we are never ever ever getting back together!”

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But then I started my new job 3 weeks ago, and this job requires more brain cells than I could ever afford with only tea! I knew it that I had to take my super power in order not to only survive, but to over-achieve. Yeah you guess it right, I crawled my ass back to coffee’s warm and fuzzy love. Baby, let’s have a one night stand, I thought.

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I promised myself, only for the first week, because I needed to absorb all the knowledge, then I would switch back to tea again.

Now, it’s my fourth week in, and guess what? I’m writing this under coffee influence.

Coffee is just so good, it makes me feel invincible, it makes me so smart, so interesting, so fun! When I scroll back to my blog posts, I could literally tell which was written under coffee influence, which was not; and if you meet me in person, you could tell whether I had coffee for the day or not.

One day, I was in the airport alone, waiting for my flight while sipping iced latte and I thought, this brain works like maniac whenever I have coffee, I wish I could document what it thinks of, what it wants to say! I boarded my plane and during take-off, le brain kept talking non-stop to me, and I reminisced my teenage days when I drank coffee and started to day-dream like a crack head. I imagined the unthinkable, I dreamt the highest and I created so many scenarios in my head of how my life would turn out. Coffee helped me to where I am today, a place where I feel content, happy and safe.

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Maybe our relationship could evolve from the chaotic dependency, to be matured and respectful. It will always be there when I need but I can learn to love myself more even without it. So I hope this is how Justin and Selena turn out to be as well.


May, caffeinated.

PS: This series is inspired by Domics, my current favourite youtuber, but unlike him, I can’t make animated video, thus, only the story. :)

Personal update and about aspiring in youtube.



It seems like forever since I updated personal matter in this blog. My life has been a whirlwind of roller-coaster this year and I did not really have time to sit down and reflect and actually write what I’m thinking. Even now I wanted to open my laptop and blogged about my personal update, I hesitated. I just feel like the older I get, the less trust I have with the world. I didn’t feel like pouring out my life to the internet anymore, like I used to when I was young, when blogging was carefree. As you grow older you expect yourself to be in certain standard. To be wise, to act decent, to just be a successful human being according to your own definition.

But I guess, I’m nowhere near that, and I don’t want to restrict myself from being a kid I’ve always been. I always have a young heart, wild and free. I know that for sure for a very very VERY long time.

So here I am… in the intersection of thirty something life.

2016 is crazy, crazy beautiful and crazy sad. I worked hard, I actually gave a damn about my career, which was very weird for me because I never see myself working in the office forever. This happened because I have a great team, great colleagues and I believe in the company I work for, Schneider Electric which is doing something good for the earth, renewable energy, hear hear! So I actually care about my work and my career.

I played hard too, wasted in some party, went out with friends and had really good times with my friends. I traveled to places I’ve never been before, I freaking climbed mount Fuji.

And I learned hard too. I lost my brother and my father. And it broke my heart in pieces in the way I could never imagined before. It was then I truly learned what being strong mean. I always thought I was strong… hell no, I was still learning to be strong. It’s not about not to cry, it’s about not to break. You can cry, you can brief, you can be angry with the world, but you can’t break.

I realized life is so short. How well will I spend mine?

You have no idea how long I’ve struggled about what I want to do with my life. Funny the way I said it like I know now what I want to do. I have a plan even though it’s still quite blurry now.

You guys know I love to take photos and videos and I love to travel and these things are great combination, right? I’ve been making videos about my travel and I even started vlogging when I was in Norway. I just felt that it was very brave to throw yourself out there so people can see you, watch you and comment about you. I know it sounds stupid, but it’s true. Putting youtube videos for public consumption is brave, and did I mention fun? Sometimes when I’m in the train I would just daydream about things I would love to shoot. Like sunrise, snow, animals running in the wild. I hope you can understand what I mean… I started to accept myself for what I actually like and enjoy doing even though it’s seems obscure now. I like the whole process, shooting, editing, publishing.

So two weeks ago I invited my friends to create video which does not have any relation with travel at all. I wanted to know if I only enjoy shooting scenery or I enjoy shooting in general. It was a two and a half hour shoot and the editing part was super long! It took me 16 hours to edit! And guess what, I had fun! And I wanted more. And I have sooooooooo many ideas in my head about what I want to do next.

Of course I will not leave my first love which is blogging, oh I love writing! But I will concentrate more on making videos because I want to learn more about shooting and editing. Of course I still need to learn to write too because hey, we’re learning everyday in our life. :)

Please search “Bay Travels” in youtube. That’s my youtube channel, subscribe if you like it! I have some great plan about it and I want you all to be part of it! Please leave a comment if you guys want me to shoot you and give me some ideas about videos, we can work together! :)

Here’s the video that I was talking about, 16 hours of editing. What a fun project. :)

And I finally finished my Okinawa Vlog, I cannot emphasize anymore how much I love Okinawa!

I’m going to Changi Aiport in 1 hour to travel! I will be back in new year and will be crazy busy until April because of work. I hope I still can squeeze some time to blog and vlog and keep the ideas rolling.

Thanks for reading this til the end, it’s been almost 10 years of online blogging with wordpress and I will never stop blogging! High five all of the bloggers out there!

And of course, wish you a wonderful Christmas and New Year!


May, excited.

Liebster Award

Disaat lagi males-malesnya ngeblog dan nggak ada topik selain wedding lagi wedding lagi di otak gue (thus I feel like a loser who doesn’t have life) a fellow blogger Oppie tagged me in a Liebster Award! Yaiy!

Sebenernya gue paling males main tag-tag-an begini soalnya nggak semua orang kan suka tag- mentag begini tapi ternyata ketika lagi bosen ngeblog, beginian berguna juga!!! Thus, terima kasih Oppieeee!!! *mwach* Aturannya simple aja kok.

  1. Posting tentang award ini di blog.
  2. Tag blogger yang kasih award ini, plus link nya donggg (iklan harus jalan terus).
  3. Jawab 11 pertanyaan yang dikasih.
  4. Share 11 fun facts tentang dirinya.
  5. Tag another 11 bloggers biar rantai nya nggak putus. :)

So let’s start with 11 fun facts about me. Asiiikkk ngomongin diri sendiri! But but but… I always talk about myself constantly on this blog and I’m kinda fed up. LOL. Let’s just bend this Liebster award rule and let me talk about Bandi. So… here’s 11 fun facts about Bandi, the guy Im going to marry in 11 days!

  1. Everytime he drinks cold drink, he gets rashes. Not the itchy ones, just random rashes appearing on his body.
  2. He has the perfect teeth. He never wears braces, seldom brush his teeth, eating sweet and sour food but yet still has the perfect teeth. Talking about how life’s not fair…
  3. He likes to dance. He didn’t know about this before he knew me. Only after he got used to dancing with me, he realized that he likes to dance, not the slow dance, but the fun crazy dance. (and a pretty good one)
  4. He has zero tolerance of visual art. He is so terrible at drawing, he has a bad taste of combining colors, he can’t differentiate paintings (for him all look the same), he can’t even trace drawing properly! Even my 4 years old student did better at tracing than him! LOL
  5. His favorite number is 7, because he was born on the seventh and we got together on the seventh.
  6. He used to not like dogs before we got together. When I asked him whether he liked dogs and he said no, I almost didn’t text him back and almost didn’t want to get to know him more. But then he tried to make contacts with dogs and he then fell in love with his first dog, Cassie. :)
  7. Bandi is an introvert. Unlike me, he (almost) never write anything in his social media. He is rarely update his facebook or post things on his path. He created facebook/twitter/path just because he wanted to stalk me.
  8. Sometimes he borrows my phone to read my path timeline because he said, “your friends are more interesting than mine.” SUPER LOL.
  9. He doesn’t wear any “guys cosmetic”. No moisturizer, no sunblock, no lotion, no whatsoever. He even won’t buy a new shampoo if he was out of shampoo. He would just use mine until I bought him a new one. He never buys toiletries!!!
  10. Bandi keeps keepsake memories. This is actually quite weird since he is a careless and don’t-care-kind a guy, but he keeps things he got from his friends, he even keeps a receipt from our 1st anniversary date!
  11. Bandi selalu dapet 1 jerawat whenever I’m on my PMS. Serius. This is creepy but cute!

And to finish this Liebster Award, lets do the 11 questions!

  1. Kapan mulai ngeblog? August 2004. Wow! It’s been a long time.
  2. Kenapa suka ngeblog? Just because I love reading memories.
  3. Paling suka ngeblog tentang apa? Tentang cinta cinta-an donnng! XD
  4. Apa topik favorit yang selalu dibaca diblog orang? Juga tentang cerita cinta. :)
  5. Apa yang kegiatan favorit di waktu luang? Kalo gue sampe bisa ada waktu luang (yang sangat amat jarang) gue pasti maen game (Playstation/Windows) atau kalo lagi nggak ada game baru, tiduuuuuuuuur!
  6. Punya mimpi yang pengen di wujudkan dalam waktu dekat? Hmm…. publish a book? (Isn’t it always?)
  7. Apa film favorit kamu? Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind.
  8. Apakah makna pertemanan itu? Jelaskan dalam maksimal 5 kalimat. Survive beyond time and distance
  9. Sebutkan 3 orang wanita yang menjadi sumber inspirasi kamu. Ibu Kartini, Ellen DeGeneres, Jane Austen.
  10. Sebutkan 3 hal yang loe paling suka dalam hidup. Jatuh cinta, ngobrol (ditemani kopi kalo lagi maw serius / ditemani wine kalo lagi maw seseruan), traveling especially mendatangi tempat baru. :)
  11. Seandainya loe hidup hanya 3 bulan kedepan dan boleh melakukan 3 hal, apa pilihan loe? Keliling dunia bareng Bandi. :) Dua lagi wish nya gue kasih ke orang lain aja. :)

Silahkan diteruskan rantainya dan ngeblog tentang Liebster Award ini dengan nulis 11 hal tentang kamu dan menjawab 11 pertanyaan diatas! 11 orang yang gue tag adalah…

  1. Dian Candella –> yang udah setengah tahun nggak ngeblog.
  2. Dina
  3. Dea
  4. Fitri
  5. Sien
  6. Arman
  7. Wu –> juga udah hampir setengah tahun nggak ngeblog. Ini teriakan your fave reader!!! X(
  8. Melissa
  9. Happy
  10. Tantri
  11. Gil

Kalo yang gue tag udah dapet Liebster Award ini, ya sudahlah yaaaa, cuekin aja. Yang nggak di-tag, anggap aja gue merasa kalian sudah cukup banyak fans nya jadi sudah gue pastikan kalian udah dapet. Xp Sekian dulu. Peace, love, and gaul! May, feeling nineties nostalgic!

P.S. I read timeline this morning and Angela did tag me too but unfortunately the draft was already done. Anyway thankies Angela! :*