I’ve been caught up with too much work lately and went home feeling like “I just wanna sleep.” Chinese New Year is the busiest time in Singapore and the pre-CNY is the worst for me, preparing bonus and events for the employees. I don’t wanna talk about work because it’s boring, but I also don’t have anything to write about. But since I made a pledge of “Post a Week 2013” I really must post something this week, preferably today because starting tomorrow, I probably will be busy for my own preparation for CNY holiday.
After 2 years of not celebrating Chinese New Year at home, this year I finally go back home for Chinese New Year. I am Indonesian Chinese, but never feel like one. I think most Indonesian Chinese are not really so Chinese, compared to Malaysian Chinese or Singaporean Chinese. We, Indonesian Chinese love Indonesian heritage more than Chinese heritage. I don’t mean to be racist but I personally don’t like anything related to Chinese thingy, especially the Chinese thinking about being successful is equivalent with being rich and stuff like that. So my childhood memories of Chinese New Year Celebration was about group of families gather together comparing who’s richer than whom.
However, I love festivity.
Singapore has one festive tradition that I really like during Chinese New Year. I don’t know what it’s called, but it’s like this… We gather around the table that has one dish full of vegetables, peanuts, salmon and other ingredients I don’t know. We pour oil and other condiments while shouting things we want in the new year such as: “Win 4D tonight!” or “Getting fatter and fatter this year”, stuff like that.
Then we all grab chopsticks and starting to… THROW THE FOOD UP IN THE AIR. Nope, actually we supposed to mix the dish together and shout things like “Huat ah!” means like “Come money come!” or “More prosperous next year.” Yeah, usually Chinese people always make a wish related to money. I even know how to spell prosperous because I live here. However, they keep shouting and shouting and I usually add “Stay healthy and happy!” =)
Continuing talking about CNY, when I went to Chinatown to buy things my mom asked me to, I kinda liked it. It was surely crowded and a lot of people shouting in Chinese but it was festive. People was smiling and laughing, which is very rarely seen because usually I only see rude Chinese people in Singapore. I also went pass this, which looked so great through camera lens. =)
I hope this year I make peace with my rebellion Chinese blood inside of me and just accept the fact that my grandpa came from China. And that won’t make me any less human. So Chinese people loves money and they are materialistic, that won’t make me one just because I am the same race with them. I must stop resenting Chinese people from now. As much as I am proud to be called Indonesian, I must never forget that I am part Chinese. It’s okay not to mention it, but I don’t want to resent it anymore.
This Chinese New Year will be different, I promise. I will go back home to my parents’ house, hosting a Chinese New Year’s Eve Dinner with family. This idea is foreign for me but I hope it works.
This probably will sound so wrong coming out from me, but I started to like Chinese New Year more and more since I live in Singapore. I was thinking to post about Chinese New Year, but I didn’t think that the post would exceed more than two paragraphs but here it is… So I guess it’s official, I like Chinese new Year.
There I said it.
Happy Chinese New Year for everyone! It’s time to eat a lot and not feel guilty about it!!!
May, pigging out soon.